Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Merry Christmas!

I just wanted to take a moment out of my day to wish a Merry Christmas to all.  We open gifts on Christmas Eve so we can remember Christ today.  He gave us so much with the life that He lived and the example He set for us.  We are blessed as Christians to know Him and His life and His sacrifice he made.  He sacrificed His life so we can return to His presence and the presence of our Heavenly Father.  There has never been a greater man, nor a great example.

At this time, I want to resolve to live my life to be more like Him.  I want to forgive faster and admit my shortcomings.  I want to be humble enough to admit when I am wrong.  Anyone that knows me, knows I hate to say sorry, but I will do it.  I don't think I am a bad person, don't get me wrong, but I know I am not the person I could be.  

I want our Savior, Jesus Christ, to know that I appreciate His life and His sacrifice.  I want to take the time to help others feel His love by the things that I do.  

I want my children to know how much I love them.  They are my life.  I would not want to be here without them.  The smiles they give make each day worth waking up to.  It is always a blessing to see the joy on their faces when they open a gift that they wanted, and I am guessing they weren't sure they would receive.  We are blessed to be a family, even an eternal family.  My children have a quick wit about them.  They make me laugh at things that might not be funny if it were anyone else doing them (if that makes any sense).  

I am blessed to be a wife to one of my best friends in the world.  Sometimes I forget that it is a blessing, life isn't always easy, but no one said it would be.  I sometimes forget the excitement of the day I met him, of the day he proposed to me, of the day we were married, of the day we were sealed in the Salt Lake City Temple, of the day we brought each of our children into the world.  He held my hand at all of those times.  He has held me up at times when I thought I couldn't do it anymore,  when life has seemed to be too hard.  

I would be nothing without my family.  My parents, my brothers and sisters, have always been my best friends.  They know me like others never will.  They have seen me at my best and at my worst, and have loved me regardless of what those moments were like.  

Christmas Day has always been a time where we celebrate with family.  Although we can't all be together, I think of them and wish we were.  We have traditions, that although we can't do them together, we do them wherever we are, and know that everyone else is enjoying those traditions also.  

Merry Christmas to all and take the time today to remember why we celebrate.  :)

Sunday, December 2, 2012

Has It Really Been One and a Half Months?!?

I can't believe how quickly time flies.  Apparently the last time I wrote was October 15, today it is December 2.  So much has happened!  We have celebrated Halloween and Thanksgiving.  My whole family came to visit, except for my niece, for Thanksgiving.  My sister-in-law came on Friday, she spent it with her sister in Washington.  My Aunt Georgia came for Thanksgiving as well.  The house was crowded and full of love.  I couldn't have asked for a better Thanksgiving!  My brother-in-law and his wife also came to enjoy Thanksgiving dinner with us.  His wife made the most delicious pies I have ever had.

Starting the Monday before Thanksgiving, someone in the house was sick daily for a week.  My mom got sick Monday, my nephew got sick Tuesday, my 4 year-old got sick Wednesday, my 8 year-old got sick Thursday night/Friday morning, another nephew got sick on Saturday.  I thought the illness had left the house until early Tuesday morning when I woke up at 5 AM sick.  I am hoping that I am the last to get it.  It was a horrid experience.  It is now Sunday and no one else has gotten sick, knock on wood.  My baby has been pooping several times a day, but at least she hasn't puked.  My stomach still hasn't recovered fully, but I am glad that the puking ended 7 hours after it began for me.

I got to spend an hour in class with my four year-old a couple weeks ago.  It was wonderful.  I sat with him while he ate breakfast and then read some books to him in the book area of the classroom.  We then had circle time.  After circle time, I had to leave.  It was an enjoyable time with him and his class.

I still run a couple times a week, when I am healthy.  I hope to get to run more frequently than that.  I need to get back into a good routine.  I feel good when I am running.  It helps me ward off depression and sadness.  It has been hard for me since we moved here to Utah.  I am so thankful that my sister is with me, but I miss being close to the rest of my family.  I miss being able to put my children in my van and drive to my parents' house, or just walk over there.

I have started taking Zoloft regularly.  It was prescribed to me for postpartum depression, but I think I need it for depression in general.  I don't think that it makes me happy, I think it more or less numbs feelings.  As much as I wanted to cry when my family left after Thanksgiving, I didn't.  I don't worry as much as I used to.  I also have to admit that I have a huge problem with anxiety.  I would lay awake at night worrying about things that I really had no control over.

My baby started to walk on Thanksgiving.  She had lots of help with all her cousins and siblings around.  My niece and my daughter were her biggest support to get her walking.  I have never been much to encourage walking, I have always figured that they would start walking when they were good and ready.  It is fun to watch her walk.  She doesn't bend her knees very well when walking so it is quite the sight to see her go.

We got an artificial Christmas tree last night.  My children had a wonderful time putting it together and pushing down the limbs.  I have to admit that it looks a lot like a Charlie Brown Christmas tree, but the more decorations we put on it, the better it looks.  I guess that is what I should expect for a $40 Christmas tree.  The children love it, and that is really all that matters.

I hope to blog more in December than I have the past couple of months.